It is still raining. Actually it is lightening and thundering and pouring. I need to go walk the dog one more time but it won't let up long enough for me to do so. The rain mixed with the readings of a fellow nutang's writings, are causing me major flashbacks. They dont happen often thanks to the walls and blocks I have developed over the years, but these readings hit way too close to home.

The memories from so long ago. The intense, all consuming love for another individual. Every waking moment is filled with that perosn. You dont care whether you live or die as long as you are with that person. Nothing or no one else matters. Even eating ceased to be important. My parents were worried and kept ragging me about my weight but they just did not understand that I was not hungry, that all I cared about was being with him.

I wonder where I would be today had we really taken off that day like we planned. We were prepared and all set to go and then a question that produced an answer that he did not like sent everything spiralling out of control. My world came crashing down. I left. I ran. But not with him. Just to remember brings an unbearable burning searing pain to my soul. The truth is still there. You never forget. You build walls and put up blocks, but all it takes is a trigger to bring your world crashing down once again.

Wow.... It's so touching.... And.. .Yeah... What you say is correct... It only takes one small thing and everything comes crashing down......
» Xboyz on 2006-11-15 11:46:52

I always wondered...
what do you do with your dog when it is raining. Here the dog needs to do his business but it is raining.... What did you do?
» kkama67 on 2006-11-16 01:48:33

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